Ciara(CeeCee) is the mail carrier that's more than a mail-lady. She is a friend, a wife, a mistress, a mother, a daughter, a party girl, and alcoholic. You name it Miss CeeCee is in the midst of it. However, her many hats have taken control of her being and she finds herself lost. She gives up on trying to change things and rolls with the punches of life....just getting by hoping one day the lord will take her and she's out of her miserable existence. Yes,CeeCee is/was depressed. After a traumatic experience involving her family she's pushed over the edge. She wants to commit the ultimate sin. CeeCee starts to plot on ending her life. She gathers everything she needs, and evaluates her life past, present with no future. She has some up and down moments as she tries to carry out her plan. Will she really do it? Or, realize that life is bittersweet and she's just caught up in a world of SELF PITY. This is the first novel of the Self Pity series. After walking in CeeCee's shoe's there are other sides of the spectrum. Following novels will include MAMACITA, MYSTERY LADY, and various others characters from this series....Ending with GENERATIONS. The point of this novel is to warn my brothers and sisters that depression does exist, and some people really need help. We must not ignore suicide simply because we as individuals don't believe in it. This is real, and it takes lives everyday